Caught up with the past

Woke up in the middle of the night
Set my eyes against the blinding light
Yesterday, it was attention that I was yearning
Now, I’m just a key that needs a little turning

I close my eyes, to get no sleep
There are no longer any secrets that I can keep
I promised myself I wouldn’t weep
Another promise I can’t keep

It was just yesterday that I accidentally lost my way
Today, I deliberately led myself astray
How do I remember how to smile?
Tonight, nothing seems worthwhile

It seems no one can help me now
I’m in too deep, no way out
I let words drive me to evil, it drives me insane
It’s a lot easier than dealing with the pain

Tonight everything feels dead and dry;
Her and me, day and night, earth and sky